While the first half of 2013 had me going thru the fire daily getting my personal and legal issues resolved. The second half of the year, thankfully, was much more stable and peaceful.
For the first time in many years, I have had to embrace major change, a fuerzas, in all areas of my life. I feel like I live my life on a schedule for everything these days LOL, with things mapped out for the first time in a long time. I completely depended upon schedules to keep me on track emotionally especially so that I could get thru some very dark days. Living on a schedule has really helped me to be able to take care of the things that I need to like my job, my finances, and taking care of my folks, while at the same time, think about how I want to start over and live my life again.
After so many months of insomnia, stress, and drama; I am so grateful for the very simple things in life: getting a good night’s sleep, waking up knowing that I’m ok and that my loved ones are safe, grateful for my job where I’m learning and growing professionally every day. While I can never forget, I remain convinced that the only way that I will move forward is to practice forgiveness and gratitude. It may sound so cliché but when you go thru something traumatic, it is so comforting and energizing to hold on to the very simple and basic things to help you as you recreate your life.
Simply put…I am thankful for all that has happened to me. I will accept and appreciate the fact that my life was blown up and shattered into millions of pieces and I will embrace the fact that I have been able to persevere and, dare I say it, THRIVE thru all of the madness. I have learned that the only way to get thru anything and to put the pieces of my life back together is to walk thru it, eyes wide open. I’m excited to live my life being honest with myself/others and to have my own back, that is, I will never, ever, ever hand myself, my self-worth or esteem over to any job, any project, or anyone else ever again así nomas.
Also beyond thankful that my parents and bonus parents are here with me after overcoming major health issues this year…love it that you are doing better every day Mama as well as our Ita!
Said goodbye to: Four great women: cousin Jennifer Rafanan Teal, bonus aunt Josefina “JoJo” Perez, event mentor Terry Alderete, fam friend Elvia Cortez
Said hello to: our new bebito King Alexander
Celebrated: Mama doing great! Ita doing great! Papito David’s 1st Communion, Little Bea’s wedding, Summer fun with our Torres littles, Mikey III and Amy’s wedding, our Yazi’s first day of school, catching up with my Radio Fam this year at the KWIN/KWG/KCVR Reunions, putting on my first-ever solo event, helping my CCgirl get college-bound, connecting with fam friends, my first year in Radio Sales
Looking forward to:
- Staying connected to my familia and to continue to be there for my ‘old school’
- Making my overall health a priority and to take this lonja down! LOL
- Learning more about my industry and learning how to grow my business.
- Studying and passing the State Bilingual Interpreter Exam…I was so close this time around!
- Remaining positive as I recreate a new life for myself
- Repeating my all-time fav quote as often as need be: ”Si me caigo por pendeja…me levanto por chingona!”
Looking forward to continued peace in my life and wishing you and yours a Merry Christmas and a Great 2014! Carmen:)