Maybe it’s because I’ve worked holiday events almost my entire life and career that I’ve rarely appreciated the holidays as maybe I should have. I was around people 24/7 so I was burned out at family things which now gives me a lot of regret. I was able to provide great holidays for the masses but never able to find that joy for myself. It was always expected that I would take charge, even when I didn’t want to sometimes, I did it.
That is, until I learned about gratitude. Gratitude meant that everything was enough, that I didn’t have to be perfect all of the time, that I needed to just relax and just be…all of the things that I longed for when I’d be working an event for hours missing what was happening at home.
However, it took me years to get there. Took me years to truly appreciate the important things in life for me: home, family, simple pleasures. These have been my refuge when things didn’t go well with a job, or a man, or anything. For years, I was embarrassed to admit that I actually loved hanging out with these people, being at home, doing things that fulfilled me like writing and reading.
I had to do the work on myself, still do. What’s hilarious to me is that I’m still very much Type A: I really do ‘plan’ out my life as if it were an event, timelines, deadlines and everything. Of course, these are only for me but I’ve noticed that I’ve been able to work much smarter and to be a lil more relaxed with my daily “to do” tasks written on my white board updated every day, to keeping the calendar of family stuff and birthdays, and to working family dinners and events, and pushing myself to make sure things were ready/done one hour before before “doors”–the opening of doors before the start of an event.
Now that this cuarentena has us on lock down one day, free the next, I haven’t really been able to do a lot of the things WHERE I want to do them. Although I still feel grateful to have a home to come to, for my room/apartment when I need true refuge from people, places, and things. Grateful for being able to put my thoughts in writing, for keeping up with friends even if it’s via Zoom, and dare I say it? Grateful to have peace in my life.
This is a good week to take stock of what works for you (and not) in your life and learning to keep things simple. Mama used to tell me that I was hooked on adrenaline, which is why I couldn’t relax, I’m so thankful that drama no longer defines me.
Do Thanksgiving YOUR way, maybe Covid19 is helping us all to learn about the important things in life and taking time to enjoy them.
Feliz Dia de Accion de Gracias!