Soooo ready am I to start my new life that I have been throwing stuff out all day. I went to clear and pack up stuff that I’ve had all over the place, you should have seen my Jeep, packed to the top with my stuff. By the time I got to my storage unit, I was racing against darkness because, yes, shortass me cannot reach the string to turn the light on. All I kept saying was ‘chiiiiingado, I have a lot of stuff!’ Thank you JesusLordVirgenOfG that I went through and did a huge purge not too long ago – threw out over 20 boxes of stuff. I’m gonna have to go there and purge again, I could already tell. As tirada as I am, full of dirt and dust, hair thrashed, no makeup on, I felt like I had run a marathon and celebrated by coming into one of my Starbucks’ ready to write.
I heard someone say this on TV this morning, ‘Take the Leap, the Net Will Follow‘ and it turned into my battle cry for the day, it seemed to put into six words what my mind, body, soul and heart have been screaming out loud for so long. Sometimes you have to just ‘kiss it up to God’ and move forward, trusting that He will take care of you. This is a very very good sign: my sense of ‘aventada-ness’ and my ‘mevalemadre‘ attitude are, slowly but surely, starting to permeate my soul again.
To start feeling like “me” again, was something that I was so afraid was lost forever. I know now that I wasn’t lost per se, but I was existing nomas, I was on serious auto-pilot and just trying to get through the day. Life really happened big time for me, caretaking, moving from place to place, trying to free myself from this man and his madness, and Mama’s passing. I felt as if I were just reacting to everything around me, instead of handling this mess head-on. Hindsight is, of course, 20/20 and I think that we all, at some point, have that moment of clarity, where we just KNOW that there is nothing else to be gained by NOT being there for ourselves. I know that the minute, almost the second, that I received that text message about how ugly, fat, old, sick, and whatever else I was … that I had turned the corner back to “me”, I thought to myself, al estilo JenniRivera, “brincos dieras pendejo … your words mean nothing” … this person or situation would not define me nor mess with my mind again.
While my enthusiasm, creativity, and energy is off the charts, I found these useful tips (Stacy Michelle/mbg2014) to help me find the net as I take the leap. I’ve personalized the first one a little and hope that these tips inspire you to make that leap in your life:
1. Listen to the voice in your head AKA your Inner Chingona:
Your inner voice has some very important things to say. In a society where we tend to look to outsiders for advice, we tend to ignore our inner-voice. When you have a gut instinct about something, trust it and follow it. What big bold move is your inner-voice telling you to take?
2. Practice daily self-care.
When we take the road less travelled, it can be stressful which is why it’s so important to stop, breathe and nourish your body and soul in whatever way works for you. Take care of yourself: meditate, work-out, take a bath or get out in nature.
3. Replace fear of the unknown with a sense of desire for what’s to come.
Being in the unknown can be scary as hell, but try to replace your fear with desire for the passion you are pursuing! Take 5-10 minutes every day and visualize it. What does it look like? What does it feel like? Who is around you? When you can stay in that beautiful energetic state that is desire, you are more likely to cultivate your passion with ease.
4. Let yourself be supported by like-minded people.
As a former, “I don’t need anyone’s help” chick, this one was tough for me but we can’t take courageous journeys alone. Find a community of people who are taking a similar leap of faith.
5. Quit comparing yourself to others around you.
It’s easy to get wrapped up in timelines and compare yourself to what your peers have already cultivated. Everyone has their own respective journey of what they’re manifesting in life. Focus on your desires, and trust that if you pay attention to what you want, it will happen exactly as it’s supposed to.
6. Celebrate what’s you’ve manifested to date.
I equate the pursuit of one’s passion to a treasure hunt. The path is never clearly laid out, but we get clues along the way that give us assurance that we’re not out-of-our-minds for pursuing our dreams. Celebrate your clues, celebrate what you cultivate along the way and use it as a reminder to not give up when the end result isn’t happening as quickly as you may want it to.
7. Remember, you are fabulous no matter what’s in your bank account!
We often look to our bank accounts as a symbol that we are prosperous. Remember that you are love, you are joy, you are fabulous no matter how much debt you have on the books or how much you may need to withdraw from your savings to pursue your dreams.
If you can be patient, stay focused and hold onto how abundant you are despite your lack of material abundance. Eventually what you need will flow in your direction.
–TO BE CONTINUED…