Trying to find writing inspiration this week. Looking through all of my drafts, looking through pictures, looking at books, and trying to visualize life when I’m on a roll, when the words flow through my brain to my fingers flying to the keyboard or to my pen, when I cannot stop, even if I may want to take a bathroom break or take a nap, so not happening when I’m on a roll, as I want to get my ideas on paper before that coveted inspiration decides to move on, leaving me exhausted and breathless. What works best? A laptop or a journal?
What I have found, when I’m stuck, is that I need to 1) live life and not worry about writing, and 2) find one of my current journals. (I usually have 2 or 3 current journals going at once.) Most times, I find a cool place (Starbucks, a park, somewhere near the water), I find a comfortable pen, and just start writing. Once I start writing, I can go on and on for hours and. most times, I write 10 pages or more at a time, back and front. This is truly when my hand can write out those thoughts that I have been afraid to even think about, much less verbalize them. When I go back to read what I have written, I’m often surprised/shocked at what I see on the written page. Some lines are in all caps, complete with cuss words in Spanish, English, or Spanglish when I’m trying to get my thoughts together on an emotional situation, some lines feel like I’m crying the words out and I see a lot of ‘whyyyyyyyy?‘, and the most unattractive sentences are those where I’m straight-up whining and complaining. Ni modo, when I journal, everything comes out through that pen, all of my emotions fly out, in no particular order. It’s supposed to be messy, fast, unhinged, chaotic, emotional, sad, slow, happy, proud…as fast as I think it, I write it down. Writing in my journal reminds me of a therapy session: where you never know what will happen but it’s usually something that has needed to come up to the surface for a long time. I’m usually mentally exhausted after a journaling session. I have tried to journal via laptop but it just isn’t the same. I like how the pages feel once I’ve written on them, the crispy/crunchy sound of the paper as I turn the written pages, the smell of the freshly written ink, ink spots on my fingers, laughing at the comments I tend to put at the edges of the pages, mostly song titles that pop into my mind as I write, people’s’ names, especially if I need to call or see someone. If I look at a past journal, it’s the same feeling and sometimes my mouth drops because of something I’ve written in a past entry that has come to pass , this type of journaling is almost like visualization – if you write it down, it does come to pass. At times, I’m completely humbled when I read an entry in a past journal, if it’s about an issue that has brought me down and is STILL bringing me down now, it’s a huge wake up call for me, depending on how long ago I had written about the issue — that all I’ve done is cry about it and I need to get a handle on said situation and move the eff on LOL.
I call my laptop case my “office” as I work best on the laptop when it comes to work writing: articles, social media, blog posts, proposals, etc. I lose patience if I have to write any work things down in a pen LOL! I need to get this stuff done now not later. It’s almost the same pace as writing in a journal when I’m on a roll and it feels more organized. I usually have a list near the laptop of what I need to write so that I can just work it and check it off once done. When inspiration hits, it’s the same feeling I get as if I were writing on paper with pen. I love when the words flow out of me and, especially when blogging or updating social media, having access to my thousands of pictures and graphics is great.
Now judging on the size of these blog paragraphs, it is obvious, most def, time for me to write in my journal until I get my writing groove back!