Yay! I made it thru the #52essays2017 Challenge — writing one essay per week. For the most part, I kept up really well but you know how life is, it really gets in your way some times. I gained more confidence as a writer and always look forward to the time when inspiration hits. The best part about this challenge was that I finally see the value of FINISHING WHAT YOU START. I was able to do this time and time again throughout 2017 and it is one great feeling to commit to a project and finish it!
I’m one day away from the big day: putting on my first New Year’s Eve Gala. It’s been all about flying without a net. Scary. Yet invigorating. As I sit here reviewing everything, I see that I’ve done pretty good in getting the major stuff paid for before the event starts. Yes, I’m still in “light the candle” mode because I’d love to break even with the event, maybe make a lil extra. We had a couple of WTF freak-out moments earlier today and there are a few things that I cannot have because we cannot afford them – yet. All that’s left for me to do is to find my peace and visualize everyone coming in and having a spectacular evening. Last year at this time, I couldn’t even THINK about doing something like this, I was completely down and out. 2017 taught me that things can and do change for the better … if you’re willing to clear your decks of negativity, pendejadas, and close-mindedness.
I still have a way to go health-wize but I did a number of fitness challenges one after the other and saw my health improve, my lonja go down a little, my clothes get baggy, and my attitude began to change and my confidence started to come back.
In events land, you have to be confident and move forward even when others say that “we’ve always done it this or that way”, “we can’t do that” or “how are you gonna make that happen?” I’m living proof that having your sense of “aventada-ness” and a “mevalemadre attitude” front and center when you need them, that GodJesusVirgenOfG can help you go farther than you could ever imagine. I needed good things to happen in 2017 and they finally did.
For part of 2017, I worked with special needs kids and lil pre-kinder bebitos and had the time of my life. I left happy and TIRED every day. I now know that God puts you where you need to be and, let me tell you, I gained more respect for teachers and parents. There is a reason why I have no children of my own but that doesn’t mean that I can’t be a NinaCarmen, AuntyCarmen, a mentor, or a friend. All they want is a little bit of your time and attention.
In no particular order, here is what I’d like to happen in 2018:
What I’m happiest about: TorresBabies, Torres5, my life with Dad Mike Torres, my writing, my events, our monthly prayer nights.
What I need to work on: Making time with friends, working out, owning my power, learning to say ‘no’, not going OFF, making peace with the past
What I’m hopeful for: A better world, Immigration Reform, patience, justice, successful events, change in Washington
Sad that we lost: family friends Bernardo Santillan, Neftali Orosco
Personal Goals I’d like to accomplish: Pass State Exam, Bring my Personal debt down, help keep our family together.
Have a safe and Happy New Year! More to come in 2018…